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Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Sometimes we must take a step back!!!

Hello,

I hope you all had an amazing holiday!!! I didn't do much as I was packing all weekend long. And to make matters worse I was suppose to move on Monday but we had to postpone the move to Friday, due to the new place not being ready.

Today I am sharing a personal note about the steps we take in life in most cases we take steps forward. This year I have had to take a step back and I am having such a hard time.

Two years ago I decided to take a giant step forward and I rented a beautiful townhouse. After living in apartments my whole life. It was spacious, beautiful and the biggest place I have had in a while. To be honest when I moved here I was so happy that I finally sprung forward. Fast forward to 2 years later and I had to take a step back and give up the beautiful townhouse. It's been the hardest decision to make because I am now going to back to an apartment which is making me really sad. Why you ask? well it's sounds so logical but I still can't wrap my head around it and convince myself its the best move.

There are so many factors that have contributed to this decision I would need more than one post to list them all. But in a nutshell my personal life, my finances, my kids and time where the main reason I took the step. Living in this beautiful house was more a sacrifice than a anything else. The only thing I had was the space and the fact that I could have a craft room something I had been wanting for a while but couldn't do even after building the room. I sacrificed a lot in the past two years and missed out a lot on the kids, today I am taking a step back in the hopes to make that giant move forward. Its a decision that has weighed heavily in my heart for the past few days and one that has caused lots of anxiety in my person.

I am sad not to leave the old place per say because at some point we all need to move on but more because I didn't accomplish moving forward in more ways then one. And I feel I have let everyone down including myself and my family. As of Friday I will be living in my new smaller apartment and I am hoping to grow to love it as much as I did my old place. I hope to finally find the peace I have been looking for and the time I have lost. In the end I pray that taking this step back will help me grow as a person, mother, friend and blogger. And I will finally be able to accomplish everything on my to do list. While this new place will not offer the home/house I have envisioned for myself and my family. It will most definitely make my life a little easier than before and will allow me more TIME for the things that are most important in life my boys and my family. So in closing sometimes we must take a step back in order to take a step forward.

I may not be posting as much as before because I am moving and trying to adjust to the new place. But when I do come back I am hoping it will be a much more peaceful and relaxed me with lots of projects. I do have a few giveaways coming up and a new series I want to do on the blog.

Thanks for letting me vent!!!

Be back soon

Melissa

3 comments:

  1. You are right Melissa. There are times in life you do take a few steps backwards to gain giant leaps later. Sometimes these gains are nowhere in sight but just happen! In these unsettling days many of us have had to downsize in life but more often than not we are forced to look at what is really important in life and that is friends and family. Those you love and that love you...and that doesn't require a huge bank account, a spacious living space or a fancy car. That requires you and what you have to give. Best of luck to you in your new adventure! I look so forward to hopping with you next month!

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  2. Melissa,
    I just read your post and I had to comment. Don't look at is as taking a step back. It seems like you are an awesome mom who would rather spend more time with her kids then be stressed out about making more money to pay rent for a larger place. I think you made a wise choice because children grow up way to fast and you need to enjoy them while.
    Sylvia
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